It's Gone!

Well Well Well,
I should've followed my gut instinct from the moment I knew. Matt has LIED and went behind my back again to the casino. I don't know what to do at this point, I'm done. I have tried to have a trusting honest relationship with this man who preaches about lying and he's the one who is a liar.
Of course, he threw it in my face how he was hurt and how I've done it to him, but I threw it right back that it was the past and we made a commitment to be honest with each other and not to lie, I've held my promise for over a year, but now we have to re-live it all.
I'm crushed, hurt, disappointed ALL of it. I can accually say I kind of hate him at this point. If he wants that life he can have it but I'm not going to be involved. I have changed my life for this guy in numorous ways and to be hurt over and over, it's not worth it to me.
I tried.
I give up.
He's a liar, a sneak, and totally dishonest. That's not love to me.